The fear is rising
Overwhelming and enveloping me
Am I taking a wonderful risk
with the potential to change my reality
To one of freedom, peace and happiness
A life born of the heart
Or is it a reckless decision?
One that will see our beautiful little family
A terrible mother risking her children’s future
Or a mother trying to instill in her children
Desire and courage to chase their dreams
To risk big and chase hard, never giving up.
Which side of the coin is it?
I’m putting my money on the latter
However it doesn’t mean the fear isn’t there
Doesn’t mean the fear isn’t real
So why do I continue?
What stops me giving in to it?
I’m really not entirely sure
Even on the days I doubt everything
There must be a deep seeded belief
Belief that I might actually pull this off!
That this is my defining moment in time
That if I give up now….
There won’t be another chance
That I’ll live forever wondering
Maybe even with regret
I look for inspiration
I find it in so many manifestations
JK Rawlings – family living in the car
Persisting and believing after so many rejections
Rejections that would have deflated and stopped so many others
Sylvester Stallone living homeless with a vision
A vision to star in the very movie he wrote. A complete unknown
The courage and belief that journey must have taken!
Thor Heyerdahl and the voyage of the Kon-Tiki
These are the people I look to for inspiration when I’m scared
Scared of risking it all
Scared of failing my children
It’s not about having no fear
That’s impossible or a sign of insanity I think
It’s about riding with it.
Asking what’s real and what’s not
Putting it through the checks and balances
Having the courage to move forward in spite of it
Courage is never present when there’s no fear
Courage is only possible when there is fear.